The second best Christmas ever

Christmas here was wonderful. It was so great to be with my mom, Gram and Bob. It was soooo great to be with both of my sisters too. The boys were fun too, but I think they really wished Eric was there so they weren't out numbered! We were all very comical. It was great to see Digger too... Thundar!!! ahahahaha

I decided that blindsighted would be the word for 2005! Luckily the year is almost over! Of course there were so many great things that came along with it, but for me it was also a big year of learning lessons... the hard ways too. I thought the older you get the more you appreciate the people in your life, and the more you realize life is short and to treasure all those people in your life. I still think that, but I learned that some people don't, and it makes me sad that they think that way.

I am very proud of myself though, there was a situation that I was worried about, but I know there isn't anything I can do, so I just have to accept it. I did have a very upset stomach b/c of it, but when I realized it wasn't worth it, it went a way as fast as it came! I did, and I didn't spend my time worthlessly...I am so proud of myself for that!

I am thankful because I have a wonderful family. Even if all of my friends decided to hate me I have 3 best friends... and they have to always love me b/c they are my mom, and my two sisters!! :) I have the best boyfriend in the world and every day that passes he becomes more of a best friend to me as well.... who could ask for more?! The friends I have I am very thankful for too...

So presents I got...

Lots of undergarments!!!
tons of socks
life is good mittens, socks, PJ pants and a shirt (it's yellow...woohoo!)
Warm vanilla sugar bath and body works stuff... it smells so good I want to eat it!
lots of coffee
a whole bunch of spices and a nice little rack to hold them!
some fish decals for the shower... :) (no one wants to fall right?!!)
a gorgeous hat and scarf that my mom made...purple!!
Lots of swiss colony stuff, (sausage and cheese for you!)
a new luggage bag
candles
YAK TRACKS!!!
a really nice capiline shirt
lots of chapstick!!
a sweater
PENGUIN longjohns!!
lots of other stuff I am sure I am forgetting too! It's just so nice to feel so loved, and that it can overpower the feeling the I know at the same time I am truly hated too! But it's all ok, it really really is, and that is the best feeling of all!

The best day ever

So in case anyone ever wanted to try to give me the best day ever... it's been taken! I had Christmas last night with Eric! The gift exchanging was great, but the best part was how you could feel the love and thoughtfulness when you walked into the apartment. There are very few times when I felt like I could cry happy tears, but last night was one of them. There were so many great things that had nothing to do with gifts, and that's what Christmas should always be about. (I did love the gifts though!) The most comparable feeling I can think of it when I was a little kid and as soon as I saw my gifts I felt at a loss for words, but last night it was as soon as I walked in, and had nothing to do with the gifts! Guess who's going to see Moe and the Disco Biscuits play in Chicago... Eric and me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Too busy on cloud 9 :)

For my mom

I thought about writing this in an email, but then I thought... as much as it's private between us, it's important for everyone to know just how great you are! It's like I told you... well as far back as I can remember... If I could have chosen anyone in the galaxy to be my mom, I would have chosen you!

Thank you for being so wonderful.
When I stayed with Aimee, it hurt you, and you were still there everyday to pick us up for school, you let me be angry about things I would later realize were ridiculous, thank you. You let me take home stray pets without getting too angry! You let me take home Isabell and then gave Cotton to Gram, which was totally selfish of me... thank you. You threw the best baby shower ever for KT, but it really wasn't for KT it was for me, and I didn't even say thank you, so I am saying it now with ten times more love and appreciation than if I would have said it then. You have taught me so much. The thing I want to say thank you for the most is for being proud of me, and knowing that is one of the biggest priorities in my life... btw-I know you think that is crazy, but how else can you give back to someone who has given you so much?

You have taught me about the person I want to be, the person I get closer and closer to being everyday. So you didn't send patience my way, but it could be worse right?!! (had to throw some humor in!) You really made me believe in myself, especially at the hardest times, when I felt like I hadn't done anything right. You showed me that anyone can do what they put their mind to, that love is more important than anything. So what we weren't rich, we had more than most families will ever have... each other. There is nothing more real than that. Of course there will always be that part of us that wants to be rich!!! But we have what the "walsh's" of the world don't... real life and real love! We don't need to be fake about the way we feel b/c we really are best friends, it was a long time of loving, hurting and learning to get this way... but I think there is no better feeling a daughter could ever wish for! Thank you for wanting to "agree to disagree" I think if a lot of people could agree to that things would be much easier for so many people!

Thank you for all the memories you have helped me collect. Thank you for being you, thank you for being my best friend, and most of all thank you for letting me wait this long to say thank you for all of the wonderful things you do, not just for me... for the world.